Preparing for the most depressing day of my entire life!!

I HATE goodbyes ): ): ): they are sooo gayyy!!!!

I've had to say goodbye to some of the people that are the CLOSEST to me and its soooo sad every single time ): 

This Friday will be the most depressing day of my entire life....

Lets start by saying goodbye to my roommates ): 

 Jordan, Court, and Amber!!

Their contracts are up so off they go!! ): 

And lastly ): 

Hailey is moving ): ): My brother got a better job so theyre leaving me ): 

I have to say goodbye to my little booger !!! ohhh i will be a mess for sure ): this is soooo gay!!

I will miss her so so so sooo much ): she's my favorite thing about life! waaaahhh!!

Friends suck...good thing ROC is family! (:

ROC did it again (: 

We had our home show this Friday and Saturday in Provo! 

This year of ROC is soon coming to an end. This show was a really big deal for us because it was our first time performing "home" in front of our peers. After this show we head out on our big tour to Texas!! 

 Some things really disappointed me tonight. You see, after months and months of practice, and weeks and weeks of hard work trying to invite as many of the people I love as possible. Few were those who came. Which was such a huge learning experience for me because it showed me who really cares and who really matters. 

There of course were those who  just truly couldn't make it and from the start told me they wouldn't be able to. They dont really bother me. Those who bothered me were the ones who bought tickets, promised to show up and ...never did. Or those who made the disgusting attempt to say they went, when I know they didn't.

After the show I looked around at everyone with their friends and family and a part of me was really sad but most of all disappointed. However, I went backstage and saw those who really mattered. I saw my family dancing around, singing, and with huge smiles on their face. I vented to my sisters and told them all that was bothering me and watched them be bugged by it too  (: And then it hit me (: Not many of the people that matter to me the most were sitting in the audience...because all of the once who mattered were on stage with me (: 

I love my ROC family it is the biggest blessing in my life and this show taught me a lot...

just like everything we do! 

Tomorrow is our annual fireside and you know, I haven't invited anyone nor will I. Those who care will go and those who matter...will already be there (: 

Thank you guys for being so great to me
I love you all!

Make me fall in love with you...! (:

Okay, So I have to make something clear. I often talk to people about how dating is lame and how much I have always hated it. Everyone knows that I'm more "laid" back when it comes down to that stuff. I'm just kind of ... 

Mehhh! 

 You see i dont want people to think that I dont care for those things. I have learned that there is a difference between not caring and not making a huge deal out of it. 

I'm still a girl and I do have a bit of corniness in me... 

AND

I'm still human!! Humans like to be shown that they are cared for (: Thought of, and appreciated. 

I don't want this to sound like I expect a boy to show up at my door with roses every day but just simply letting me know they care...

For the longest time I thought this was impossible but I feel it's safe to declare now that I finally know a good, nice, sweet, good looking boy (: ahh!! It's a huge deal posting this on my blogg because everyone always alwayss asks but I feel safe declaring out the world that there's a good boy in my life !(: 

With this boy I honestly feel happiness (: 

its so great to receive back the same amount of what you're giving! I love being appreciated, encouraged, congratulated, and I love him wishing me good luck on the week of a huge performance and being as excited to hear from me as I am to hear from him(: and its honestly good to know that I'm not asking for much! 

 

Who is this boy? (: 

......

well, that's another story and my little secret (: 

Point of this blog...

Although I dont like corniness I still think that boys should make an effort to make us fall in love with them dang it!! 

Call, ask how we are,make us feel appreciated, cared for, and loved!!! 

If its with Roses then roses dangit! 

If your style is just a simple text...TRY A LITTLE HARDER!!!

Or if your style is getting her a matching jersey of a team who she has no clue of but it makes you feel like a team then get her that Darn jersey and wear it together!!! 

 MAKE US FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!

nuff said (:

 

 

When youre having fun....(: (:

Hello world!!! (: 

 Wow...it's been forever and a day since my last update. and now there is so much to catch up on. Basically time flies when you're having fun (: There has been so much going on in my fantastic little life lately. Some trips, some aha moments, lots of funny moments, and lots and lots of world in my eyes moments. (: 

You know, I really can't get over how fun life is. Life is just great! (: There's always so much to do, so much to learn, and lots and lots of stuff to enjoy!!! 

My life has basically has been sucked in by ROC. If its not ROC, its family,church,friends(:

So lets catch you up shall we? (: 

The ROC home show is April 8&9 so we've just been practicing and working for that as well as our two week tour in Texas (: (: . Still going strong, hanging out, and doing all the crazy stuff we do (: Today we also sang as a choir in a rehab center for trouble youth as part of their sacrament program. After, we got to stay for young women and got to meet some very beautiful girls (:

For spring break I went with my roommie and a couple of friends to Moab!! Hiking was deff a little tough but so so so so worth it (: It really was a blessing and sooooo cool to be able to see such beautiful views!! 

 

 

Finally, the most recent event in my life (: Festival of Colors. AHHH!! Such an awesome event in my little life! Where I learned how to crowd surf...and happened to fall too! (: he he he! 

So....moral of the story is. Life is good (: I've been having fun, maybe too much fun, and yet I keep learning new things in everything I do. I love living life to the fullest with the purpose of learning something while I'm having fun! (: 

 

I'll do better blogging I promise (: I just get carried away making stories for my blogg haha (: 

 

This whole cooking thing...

Starvation...My B.F.F.F.

I spend every single day with it.

Morning, night, afternoon, noon. We are tight! haha (:

Okay, I'm not annorexic I love love love love love food too much I'm just one of those persons who forgets to eat. Many people have asked how that's possible? and although I'd love to come up with a great answer that's not what this blogg is about so I'm off the hook (: haaha

I'd have to say that probably 20% of the reasons why I forget to eat is because I dont want to make myself anything TO eat haha so I just suck it up (: which is not good and blah blah blah.

Today though!!! Starvation got the best of me...I felt like I could eat the entire kitchen! So I got down to some cooking. I made pasta and attempted to heat up some chicken nuggets.

I made those chicken nuggets the way I was supposed to! I read the instructions, and it said 6 1/2 minutes...So I did that...and then...it happened. (:

hehe (: Can you say over cooked? needless to say i did NOT have chicken nuggets for dinner, because although the rest look good and toasty they were hard as a rock.

This whole cooking thing is just not my thing...I want to be a good cook, and make dinner for my husband and kids one day but if lil incidents like these keep happening....marriage is just not an option ahaha for the sake of those little spirits haahahahah (: Maybe starvation beats catching my appartment on fire...juuust maybe.



Shout out to all the Nice Guys (:

"all guys are the same"

"guys are Jerks"

"boys are stupid"

"Boys will be boys"

Alllllll things that I too am guilty of saying...and believe me there are more where those lil quotes came from but I'll spare myself the time and boys the pain(:

To excusse myself and many other girls out there, I must say that the times I've said any of the quotes above have been because I had a reason...Usually some jerky, stupid boy has been behind such nasty sentences....buttttttt

Today I write to let the world know that NICE GUYS DO EXIST!!!!!

I have been so blessed these past few months because I have met nice guy, after nice guy, after nice guy. It's been so amazing!!! Every single guy in ROC  is super nice, they listen to us, laugh with us and not at us, go out of their way for us its just great (: Its so fun to have super nice guys around because it makes things so much more chill and so much more ....well....NICE!! (:

However, I must give a shout out to the nicest guys I have had a chance to be around lately.

(: The boys across the hall...

I have the nicest neighbors across the hall ever! Despite what I had heard before, One day I decided to just give them a shot and they have turned out to be the nicest guys ever!!

here is a little example of how nice they are:

Yesterday, I came home after two shows and the gym. I was tired, sleepy, and had a headache. Only to find out that i had been locked out of my appartment..boo ): I didnt know what to do So I knocked across the hall...and I wasnt greeted by a super nice guy (but we'll skip that detail) after sitting on the couch depressed at my luck. Sean showed up (: I told him I had been locked out and that I felt horrible for bumming in but he said

"good, now you can help me make dinner" 

So he began cooking while I watched....

Then Lindsey woke up and he too was super nice..he began telling me random crazy stories

(if you know Lindsey you get what kind of crazy stories he tells hehe)

After Sean finished making dinner, he fed me and then  gave me MangoPeach apple sauce for dessert!

The Byron showed up and we all just chatted and had fun (:

Later, they asked me what I wanted to do. I said a movie would be fun...but not an R rated movie.

They were supe nice about it (: No pressure and they even let me pick the movie!!!

It was a scary one.../: but they were super chill...I even had to go across the hall because my roomate came to open the door and they paused the movie for me (:

After the movie I came home, and began thinking about all the nice guys that are out there...and I decided to take the "all guys are the same" sentence out of my vocabulary!!!

Guys are pretty nice(: and I'm so blessed to be able to meet some.

In the past week I've seen so many nice guys be nice and it just makes me so happy!!! So here is a shout out to all the nice guys I know (:

But especially Sean, Byron, Lindsey, and Matt (because we watched your movie (; ) The list would be endless if I sat here. Moral of the story is, guys are so much better when they're nice...so guys keep up the good work because we DO appreciate ya'll (:

YAY FOR NICE GUYS!!!!

I killed my roommate!!

Ready for a funny story? (: 

My First Roomate: 

My first roommate was a very interesting character. She was 25 with a lot a lot more of experience than I. She had gone through some stuff that made it difficult for me to fall asleep at night without imagining myself waking up dead the next morning...haah okay maybe that's a little too much. 

However, I will not speak to you about her life only about what made me become a killer. 

You see, I love sleeping. It's what I do. Really, when I'm bored I sleep because its so much fun (: The best part about sleeping and being out of High School though, is being able to sleep in past 8 (: woooo!!! Well, with my roommate that wasn't an option. She had a little buddy called "the stupid alarm clock" which was one of those hotel black alarm clocks the ones that sound SUPER LOUD!!! and it wasnt the fact that she had a SUPER LOUD alarm clock that made me go nuts....it was the fact that she took sleeping pills, and put headphones in her ear before she went to bed so "the stupid alarm clock" would not go off for up to an hour and 1/2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The roommates beside us began to hear it in the mornings and they would bang on the wall begging for her to shut it up but she wouldn't hear us!! 

Well, we've come to the conclusion that I don't like to argue. I avoid arguing because I make people feel horrible after I'm done arguing so I just avoid those moments. Anyway, since "the stupid alarm clock" wasnt letting me sleep I would sleep in the living room...this has gone on for about two months, so I'd find ways to just not sleep at home, or in my room.I was nice to her and considerate of her, i didnt want to be rude to her.. But finally monday night it got to be too much for everyone so we called her in for a "come to Jesus meeting" where we apologized for being rude to her if she felt like we had...and to tell her that the alarm clock was driving us insaine. She agreed to fixing the problem and we all ended on a good note. We all were soo nice I was proud of us (: 

Yesterday I came home from practice...TO AN EMPTY ROOM!!!! 

She left....

So I can now tell you I killed my roommate....with kindness (: