Preparing for the most depressing day of my entire life!!

I HATE goodbyes ): ): ): they are sooo gayyy!!!!

I've had to say goodbye to some of the people that are the CLOSEST to me and its soooo sad every single time ): 

This Friday will be the most depressing day of my entire life....

Lets start by saying goodbye to my roommates ): 

 Jordan, Court, and Amber!!

Their contracts are up so off they go!! ): 

And lastly ): 

Hailey is moving ): ): My brother got a better job so theyre leaving me ): 

I have to say goodbye to my little booger !!! ohhh i will be a mess for sure ): this is soooo gay!!

I will miss her so so so sooo much ): she's my favorite thing about life! waaaahhh!!

Friends suck...good thing ROC is family! (:

ROC did it again (: 

We had our home show this Friday and Saturday in Provo! 

This year of ROC is soon coming to an end. This show was a really big deal for us because it was our first time performing "home" in front of our peers. After this show we head out on our big tour to Texas!! 

 Some things really disappointed me tonight. You see, after months and months of practice, and weeks and weeks of hard work trying to invite as many of the people I love as possible. Few were those who came. Which was such a huge learning experience for me because it showed me who really cares and who really matters. 

There of course were those who  just truly couldn't make it and from the start told me they wouldn't be able to. They dont really bother me. Those who bothered me were the ones who bought tickets, promised to show up and ...never did. Or those who made the disgusting attempt to say they went, when I know they didn't.

After the show I looked around at everyone with their friends and family and a part of me was really sad but most of all disappointed. However, I went backstage and saw those who really mattered. I saw my family dancing around, singing, and with huge smiles on their face. I vented to my sisters and told them all that was bothering me and watched them be bugged by it too  (: And then it hit me (: Not many of the people that matter to me the most were sitting in the audience...because all of the once who mattered were on stage with me (: 

I love my ROC family it is the biggest blessing in my life and this show taught me a lot...

just like everything we do! 

Tomorrow is our annual fireside and you know, I haven't invited anyone nor will I. Those who care will go and those who matter...will already be there (: 

Thank you guys for being so great to me
I love you all!

Make me fall in love with you...! (:

Okay, So I have to make something clear. I often talk to people about how dating is lame and how much I have always hated it. Everyone knows that I'm more "laid" back when it comes down to that stuff. I'm just kind of ... 

Mehhh! 

 You see i dont want people to think that I dont care for those things. I have learned that there is a difference between not caring and not making a huge deal out of it. 

I'm still a girl and I do have a bit of corniness in me... 

AND

I'm still human!! Humans like to be shown that they are cared for (: Thought of, and appreciated. 

I don't want this to sound like I expect a boy to show up at my door with roses every day but just simply letting me know they care...

For the longest time I thought this was impossible but I feel it's safe to declare now that I finally know a good, nice, sweet, good looking boy (: ahh!! It's a huge deal posting this on my blogg because everyone always alwayss asks but I feel safe declaring out the world that there's a good boy in my life !(: 

With this boy I honestly feel happiness (: 

its so great to receive back the same amount of what you're giving! I love being appreciated, encouraged, congratulated, and I love him wishing me good luck on the week of a huge performance and being as excited to hear from me as I am to hear from him(: and its honestly good to know that I'm not asking for much! 

 

Who is this boy? (: 

......

well, that's another story and my little secret (: 

Point of this blog...

Although I dont like corniness I still think that boys should make an effort to make us fall in love with them dang it!! 

Call, ask how we are,make us feel appreciated, cared for, and loved!!! 

If its with Roses then roses dangit! 

If your style is just a simple text...TRY A LITTLE HARDER!!!

Or if your style is getting her a matching jersey of a team who she has no clue of but it makes you feel like a team then get her that Darn jersey and wear it together!!! 

 MAKE US FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!

nuff said (: