gettin better (:

Im picking up cooking!!!! (: 

Finally!! Im finally getting the hand of things!! 

it sure takes time but these past two weeks ive learned to make 

Chicken Enchiladas!! 

and today I learned how to make Chicken Taquitos!! (: 

(the picture is a little weird but it was on my phone)

The washing dishes after stinks but its worth it (: woo!

You cant please everyone

Dear friends & family, 

lately you all have been very demanding. I cant seem to split my self into enough pieces to please everyone. 

I've kind of sorta been wanting time to myself lately because...well, i need it. However,  

you all think that by giving me things to do I will be better. Which is GREATLY 

appreciated BUT it has gotten to be too stressful. If I go out someone gets irritated because I'm going out, 

if I dont go out someone gets annoyed and says im boring, if I stay up late helping someone out/ talking to someone to cheer them up about their bad day...someone gets mad because I wasn't able to wake up early enough to go with them somewhere. I just cant please everyone!!

So please people take it easy!! That doesnt mean get out of my life, just be more understanding if I dont answer my phone, text back, comment back, or message back right away! I just need me time! 

However, i love you all (:

sincerely, ME!

The way I handle life. (:

Its Saturday night and people are running around doing all sorts of fun stuff. 

I had some fun stuff I could be doing but let me paint you my Saturday. 

It involves coming home from work after a 10 hour shift, 

getting into  my PJs

Making myself something simple to eat like spaghetti (because its one of the few things that I actually know how to cook and enjoy eating every day hah) and watching High School Musical while updating my blog... 

 Alone(: 

I could be out on a date

Out with my bud building a fire 

or getting ready to go dancing 

I could even be over at my moms eating a good home cooked meal 

But instead I am here. 

Has this update depressed you yet? I hope not because this Saturday is amazing (: You see, as you can probably tell from my last post Im having a bit of a hard time. 

Lots of people suggest that I party it off, or that I just stay distracted so that I dont think about it and I tried that but I learned this week something about myself. 

I like to be Happy, honestly happy and for me faking it doesnt cut it. 

This right here is how I cope with things. I like to have quiet, alone, me time, I like to think about what happened, i like to grow from it and I like to be content with  myself before I go be content around others... 

Emo? Hmmm probably. However, this is how I cope with life. I like to have me time (: it makes me love myself and its simply the way I cope (: 

Soon enough I'll be okay and I'll party and do crazy things but for now...

this is the way I handle life (: 

A little piece of my mind....

Unexplainable

A couple of weeks ago I was impatient for tour with ROC. 

The last tour before the season was over....but then....

Things changed, things came up and suddenly plans changed. 

ROC went on tour to Texas and I....

Well, I went home for those two weeks. 

It was one of those times when Heavenly Father throws a curve ball at you and lets you know that although you already had plans, he has different ones. 

So off to Arkansas I went! 

I was there almost two years ago, so it had been a while, and to be completely honest I wasn't sure why I was going but my brother was moving down there and I had a strong feeling that I needed to go. So I packed up and off I went.... 

Its unexplainable but although, Arkansas was not where I had planned to be during these to weeks...it turned out to be the EXACT place where I needed to be.  

The stories are endless about all I did while I was there but lets just say it was a good trip(: I got to share my testimony with lots of friends, I got to see so many people that I just NEEDED to see! I also got to to wrap up some stuff that I have been needing to wrap up. 

I got to have some of the most needed conversations that I never imagined myself having. I got to watch my testimony grow, and I had the opportunity to rely on my Heavenly Father as I watched him put my life in order according to what he knew was best for me.

 The experience was so amazing because the Lord planned it all out for me, every day was random and yet every day I would receive confirmation that that's exactly where I needed to be. 


I flew in last night and although leaving was very sad I was really glad to be back in Utah (: I know that this is where the Lord wants me now but it sure as heck was nice to get away for a little while. Thanks to everyone who made these past two weeks amazing!!!