Booo!!!

Ive never been a halloween fan. Idk why I just kind of never saw the point in it I guess!

Maybe because for three years straight eating candy wanst an option due to my sexy metals!!

Buuuut this year ....

Halloween became my favorite holiday!! (:

Noting too exciting happened but I dressed up and got to see tons of my friends dressed up toO!! (:

I know that it probably doesnt seem like it but First off...

I have never dressed up ! This year I decided that in order to get in the "halloween spirit!" i needed to dress up!! So the night before my friend and I decided to be nerds!!!

So nerds we were!! (:



 The best part was seeing my friends use their immagination to dress up in awesome ways (:

And pumpkin carving of course (:

SO yeah when I actually decided to celebrate Halloween it became pretty great! (:

To a boy...

Here I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifiting eyes and vancancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "have we met?"
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2am, who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say,
It was enchanted to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This is my song to a boy (:

Thank you Taylor Swift!

What hides behind your mask??

One thing is clear to me. Everyone hides behind a mask.

I guess I cant really blame anyone for protecting themselves but it totally frustrates me to know that people use those masks to be fake to those around them.

There deff have been times when I have had to pretend to be something for someone ...but almost always it has been for their benefit not my own. I like to be blunt and straight up....

lately I have found myself surrounded by people who have been something around me ..and suddenly stopped. It kind of makes me wonder...if i met the real person...or just the mask. Its so frustrating and sooo annoying.

Clarity is such a huge deal to me!!! I wont ever say, do, think something i dont mean.

I wish people who want to honestly be around me would do the same....

I understand people have to hide to protect themselves but that doesnt make it an excusse to be fake.

A little fear of mine.

The thought of dating is sooo scary to me. I dont really know where the heck i was traumatized but I hate dating and the thought of going on a date makes me nervous and VERRRYY scared. For some reason I've never been able to think of dates as harmless hang outs.

When I think of dates I usually end up in the same spot...and that is someone being heartbroken. Its not like I dont wish I wasnt scared of it but I am..

Dating is a little fear of mine...

SIGH!

Life with TWO jobs...

SO i guess you can say that I'm officially a responsible adult!? Now not only do I have to keep one job I have to keep TWO!! (:

I really love my new job! (: I work for the Provo Craft call center! I know it sounds like just any other call center job but this job is really amaziing! (: I love my co-workers, i love the values my job has, I ABSOLUTELY adore the fact that I work to help other people have a good experience with our company! (:
This week we've just been training. Training has been over a week but it has really been a blast! (:

Working two jobs i must admit is tough. My schedule is

6 45: Wake up (or try to wake up)
7 30-8 30 get ready
9-5 Work at Provo Craft (:
5-9 30 work At my second Job (whic btw I love but will not post the name of for safety reasons (: )
10-11 Get ready for bed

and thats how life goes for now! I dont hate it though (: Im blessed to have the most amazing co-workers in both jobs and they make it fun to go to work (:

Its fun to see how life changes, the older you get...the more responsabilities. I have two jobs and feel very priviledged to have them (:

Growing up is part of life...and it comes weather we want it or not!