There's something about being Latina...

When people ask where I'm from I always have to say 

"I was born in Mexico, raised in Arakansas" 

people probably dont know why I give so much detail but I just cant leave either out because they are both important to me. 

Truth is I did live in Mexico for the first 9 years of my life 

and although I was very young I remember a lot about it and I remember the things that I saw while growing up. 

I remember being such a little munchkin and seeing all my aunts gather around to have 

"women time". I always thought it was soo cool that they would take us all to play while they ate, 

talked, and discussed their lives as "mexican wives". Later, I grew up to see my cousins 

gather together to talk about their married life, and talk as Mexican women usually do. I remember 

waiting for that day to arrive. 

After moving here that kind of faded because well, all my aunts weren't  around (at least not all 8 of them) 

so I kind of forgot what that feeling was like. Until I got a little older and my mom started bringing me around other Latinas who gather together at the gym, restaurants and talked about current events. 

The feeling sort of came back ... and I remembered that I was still awaiting that day. 

Years later, I just have to admit how much I love "Latinas" time. There is just something about being together with a group of Latinas that makes my heart just burn! It makes me so happy to finally have reached that age where I too can now have "Latina" time. I love it because we all share so many cultural values that could be easily forgotten in the world I live in but when I have my Latina time I just looove being part of it (: It makes me remember my mom and aunts, my childhood, and how excited I was for this day to come! It makes me so proud of my culture and just sooo excited to be a Latina mother/wife. 

The feeling is just unexplainable maybe we arent that much different than a bunch of "Poly" women or "African women" but its just so exciting to be around people my race (: 

decisions....

Allow me to be the first to admit that making decisions isnt easy 

but it is soo necessary. 

I admit to be one of the many who is scared to ever make a decision about small things but 

ESPECIALLY big things. I just get so scared sometimes but I think I do pretty okay for the most part. 

Ive come to learn that sometimes you just gotta go for something! What ever it is! 

The Lord does stop us if we go too far off path but at the same time he wants us to learn. 

I think sometimes people get so scared to make the wrong decision so they end up making no decision at all! Which in my eyes is the worse decision. People over think out comes so much.... 

but even if we over think them we still have no control over them. 

I guess I'm pretty irrational, and crazy sometimes but I've learned to find those things I love 

and am crazy about and to find something that makes me happy, or passionate and to just go for it. 

So far I dont have many regrets because I gave a chance to something I loved once. 

So just decide people! 

changes...changes..

Changes, left and right 

left and right

left and right!!!!!! 

This past week I had to leave my first apartment ): that was tough, because I love that apartment and I will miss it very very much. I had to move out all by myself that was different, I mean I know I talk about adult life a lot but its really crazy when you're packing up and moving alone. No parents, just friends. 

I moved into a new apartment with a whole new set of roommates. Who thankfully I am already friends with. So that's exciting. Then applying for my DA class is going on, plus making new friends. 

Changes happen all the time but its crazy when things change so fast! I do have to say its been a blessing to have certain friends who are there to remind me

:"Mariana, its going to be okay!! Breathe!" (: 

I also read this quote this week that reminded me everything will be ALRIGHT! (: 

‎"Commit yourself to put the Lord first in your life, keep His commandments, and do what 

the Lord’s servants ask you to do. Then your feet are on the pathway to eternal life. Then it

does not matter whether you are called to be a bishop or a Relief Society president, whether

you are married or single, or whether you die tomorrow. You do not know what will

 happen. Do your best on what is fundamental and personal and then trust in the Lord and 

His timing." -Dallin H. Oaks. (:

Bring on the changes life! (: 

Happiness always comes to those who are patient! (:

I've admitted thousands of times how dramatic I can be sometimes. 

When one little thing happens, sometimes I feel like im either 

On top of the world 

Or like...

My world is crashing down. 

Depends on the situation. (: 

However lately I've learned to just do my best, sit back, and let life happen. 

Its a little hard since I like having control of some things but I'v e had to learn patience

and man, am I glad. 

I think 

Patience=Happiness (: 

Things lately are sooo great. 

This weekened I'll move in to another apartment with awesome new roommates, 

DA class starts soon, and work is picking up ! (: 

Life is just good! 

Not to mention I'm meeting tons of NEW cool people! 

Oh happiness on earth! (: