Back to December!

Oh December...How I love you,

you always keep me going!

 

Started off with a Birthday (:

And thenn...

ROC's last fireside ): ): 

 

And THEN...

Sara's ballroom concerts!

*which for some reason the picture wont upload ):* 

And thennn....

MY last ROC show ): ): 

 

 

AND THENNNNNN!!!!

Heidi and Todd's wedding!! (:

 

 

 

 

AND THENNNNNN

Aubrey's Farewell!! (:

ANDDDDD Then?

I had to organize the Ward's Christmas Activity (:

 

AND FINALLYY(: (:

I got to fly home for Christmas!

to my sweet sweet south!!

 

 

And now??

I'm back):

At my last day of work at the sweet hotel because TOMORROW I start my great new little job at the Dental Clinic!

(:

And then?

New Years....

Sigh!

Life has been GOOD (:

Ever broken a bone??

Ever sliced your finger cut?

Broke a bone?
Had an arm chopped off?

I havent. Well, not had an arm chopped off at least.

But I have had a finger cut and broken a bone.
Each pain was different but pain non the less.

Where am I getting at with this statement?

Well, when I broke a bone I experienced PAIN!!

When I sliced my finger broken I experienced pain but it wasnt as bad as the bone so yeah it hurt but I didnt freak out as much.

Same happens with trials. Sometimes we go through something small, but as we grow up and we get stronger our trials get bigger! We experience different pain and at times it gets grater and greater.

So when we are faced with smaller things its not that we are "cold" people.
Simple enough we've already been through worse so something as small as "breaking a nail" isnt that big of a deal when you've had a broken bone before!

So thats the way I see it (:

It is what it is...

"Youre so blunt"

"gahh youre such a brat!"

"...I dont know what to say anymore. Youre so straight forward!"

Direct quotes from a conversation last night. This person kept saying things like these over and over again.

It's true. Its like I have no fitler in that mouth of mine. I just say things as they come in my head. Which can be tough on the person listening but, it is what it is.

Things like....

"i'd rather be blunt than stupid and let people think they have me fooled"

"I wish I could be more sensitive, or caring about this subject but i honestly dont care"

"it is what it is. Go ahead and leave and figure things out on your own because I'm not here to teach life lessons"
"I'm not a gray person. With me its either black or white, it either is or isnt!"

There came a time in my life when I was sensitive to other people's feelings at the expense of mine. I tried to sugar coat everything and make everything sound the best I could. However, i've learned that's very dumb. People are dumb and sometimes just just gotta say it how it is. Even if it hurts because then there's no chance of your words getting twisted.

So call me a brat, blunt, straight forward or whatever but at least I'll never leave you in doubt of what I'm really thinking! (;

sdafjlerjoaweirmawe...grr!

Dont ask me to understand stupidity.

I've never been one to put up with people's stupidity. I hate stupid people, I hate their stupid ways of dealing wtih things.

I cant stand people who dont know what they want out of their life and let that be okay.

I hate when people try to use others to cover up their insecuriyt and idiocity.

I really dislike people that do something sooo stupid and expect you to understand  just because they're "unsure"

and what about those people who are stupid and know nothing about themselves but expect to help you with YOUR problems...pfft!!

the list could go on forever!! 

I'm no know it all at all but I stick to what I know and keep learning. I dont try to drag people down with me when Im unsure of something, I dont get myself into situations that I know I cant handle, I dont use other people to learn lessons that are for me to find out on my own either. I handle my trials the best I can but always look out for others.

I can admit to be bratty and sometimes unsensitive to people's idiocity but I've seen it so much in my lifetime that I just have no patience for it. Is it really that hard to act your age???

AHHH! (: Ok I'm done!

The light on the way...(:

A couple of Sundays I heard a talk that spoke about God's mercy.

I love that topic it is truly one of my favorites because of many many reason but anyway,

in that talk the girl mentioned that God's mercy isn't the light at the end of the tunnel but the light on the way to the end of the tunnel.

I really liked that phrase because I don't believe that we receive God's mercy at the end (judgement day,) we will receive his mercy all along the way.

I have truly seen his mercy these past couple of months. Although the tunnel has been dark, and perhaps kind of shaky lately, he has always been there helping me through it. Through friends, roommates, my mom, co-workers, and of course my bishop(:

I have officially become a certified Dental Assistant and that has become a huge blessing because of all the sacrifice that had to go into it...but I did the best I could and in the end the Lord made up the difference and blessed me ! This week I will also have a birthday and although this birthday isn't anything special it has truly been a blessing to make it this far and I know that is due to the Lord's mercy as well. 

Last night I had once again one of those "tough moments" in my life but I've been trying to be tough and last night I felt Heavenly Father's arms around me and his mercy letting me know its all going to be okay (: He knows I'm making and effort and as long as I am he will make up the difference and make everything a thousand times better than I could alone (:

So look for his light at the end of your tunnel because its definitely there wheter you want to see it or not (:

I'm a freak!!

My get away??

The dental clinic! That's where I like to be. 

I looooovee teeth! Holy cow I dont know where on earth I developed this sick obsession but I love teeth. Today I got to watch two root canals and some other exciting stuff and help out with some really gross things and ohh it was a blast!! (: (: (:

I looove teeth!! 

I just really cant wait to be done with the program so I can start actually assisting all the time! 

P.S. Everyone needs to floss and brush because as cool as root canals are to watch they are NO fun! ): 

I'm make mistakes..

I think I missed the "know it all" lesson in heaven. I was probably chillin in the "how to screw things up and feel horrible for it later" class that day.

Let me just tell you a story about the day that I ran out of gas in the middle of the freeway...

You see, my sweet little car has something wrong with the dashboard so when it says you have half a tank of gas it really means youre out of gas...but sometimes I like to trust it more than I should so one time my mom and I were running super duper late to work and I knew I was almost out of gas but I had no choice other than to pray and hope I made it. While in the freeway my car just started acting weird and soon enough it stopped. It was soo scary and my mom was furious. I dont really know what went through my head because I was terrffied but I realized I didnt have time to be worried...I started making calls right away. While my mom was yelling at me for "being irresponsable" I just ignored her. Long story short...I got us out of there in less than 10 minutes.

That day I got home and realized that I may have been wrong and irresponsable but I noticed how my mom said nothing to me at the end anymore because she was amazed at how fast I reacted and got us out of there.  I was proud of myself for getting myself out of the rutt I got myself into. I knew it was 100% my fault but instead of dwelling on it I took it into my own hands to fix it.

Recently I had that same experience but in a different scenario.Sure enough I tried to get myself out of the mess. This one was a little bigger than the car experience and it took a lot longer. However, this time I did all I could to fix the situation but I didnt do ABSOLUTELY everything....You see, sometimes we admit that we're wrong, and appoligize but if I had just realized I was wrong and said sorry to my mo the day we were in the middle of the freeway who knows what would have happened. I actually had to call for help, let someone help, I had to go get gas, pay, blah blah blah and promise myself that would never happen again. You see my point? It took more than a sorry. Sadly enough in this past experience I didnt realize that sometimes to mend your mistakes sometimes it takes more than a "sorry" until after a few months.  Repenting is a big step but it doesnt take away consequences for your actions.

last week's lesson was just that ^^. Although sorry is good its not  what fixes mistakes... We actually have to try and mend our doings... And sometimes people wont praise you for mending your mistakes but at least you did all you could...and sometimes thats all you can do. People may still walk away but at least your efforts were honest (:

Good thing I learned this now because dang, I dont know how I would get thorugh life without that knowledge!

This song kind of tells you what I'm talking about (;  

stay....or go, but do it now (:

I have learned a new lessson.. 

some people are made to be part of your life while others...aren't. 

I stop and think about how many people came in to my life this year and the list is very long but the list of those who actually stayed is small. I guess when we meet people we take that chance, to either let them in our lives or let them walk out. Does that make sense? 

I'll admit I'm one of those people who puts a wall up and doesnt let people in easily simply because I can see them walking out right as they come in. However, there are those people who have actually stayed. I have learned that its through tough times that you realize who those people are meant to be. Its through tough times when the reason why those people are in your life comes clear and when your relationship with them grows enough that you dont ever want to lose them or they never want to lose you. (: 

You shouldnt expect everyone to walk out but you should also not expect everyone to stay forever. So I've learned to just soak up all you can from everyone that comes in to your life, learn from them, and enjoy them because they could be gone tomorrow.... 

Its kind of like that quoe that says something along the lines of those who are meant to stay will and those who arent dont matter or something like that....its easy to say they'll be there (or that you'll be there) for someone in the moment but will they really? 


So many people can say "no matter what, you'll never lose me" but sometimes we as human get caught up in only our needs and we forget that we ever made that promise. 


This song inspired me to write this post and really helped me realize what I've learned these past few months I guess the biggest lesson I learned is let those who dont want to stay woalk out...because although it may be tough be sure that there is someone out there who DOES want to be part of you life.... (: 


Chris Medina is a huge example. 

who knows why I got so lucky!!

I ADORE my roommates! 

I love them so so so much it is crazy! We all get along so great and we like to talk about how great we are to each other. We live, hang out, sleep, eat, dream, cry, laugh together. We are together probably more than it is healthy but we never get tired of each other so I guess its a good sign? 

We ALWAYS have something to talk about. We look after each other and stick up for each other. We even told one of the guys one of us was dating "when youre dating one of us youre dating all of us" and he agreed. Ha Now we give everyone a heads up. I love how much we care about each other and we always want to go out of our way to serve each other. We listen to each other complain about the same thing over and over again and every time we feel for the other. 

We have ZERO secrets between each other and I love that. In December we will loose 3 as two go on missions and one gets married (:  so right now we are just making every moment count! 

 

Good week (:

In my personal life maybe this week wasn't that great but I got to share some special moments with friends. (: 

My roommate Aubrey got her mission call!!! 

Portland Oregon, January 11 2012 (: 

 And speaking of missionary work... 

My friend Eric was baptized today also and I had the HUGE blessing to be able to speak at his baptism! (: 

and get to see wonderful Brother Moore Baptize him (: 

I think that is one of my favorite things about this Church.. 

Not only do you get to progress and go through stages, such as being baptized, getting your Y.W. medal, graduating Seminary, Getting mission calls, going through temples....

but you also get to be there to watch your friends go through those huge moments in their lives also (: 

Congrats Aubs & Eric...you guys made my week! 

Trick-or-Treat (:

So my friends and i have become a little obsessed with making treats. 

My roommate bought this book to make Halloween treats with

so we made mud cups! (: 

 So the boys decided to compete with us and make us a HUGE cake. 

and I must admit they did a great job !!! (: 

when you want something soo bad..

I've learned that sometimes as humans we want something sooo bad that we take it upon ourselves to get it. 

We do everything in our power to get that one thing we believe we deserve only to find out that we ruin it for ourselves. 

We get so caught up in "going after what we want"  that we forget to include the one who gives us all. 

So we get discouraged, sad, mad, and frustrated when we ruin it for ourselves and we get everything but the onet hing we worked for so hard...yet we didnt even think to ask him or include him in our plans 

I've done it that's why I know it happens. But I think I've learned my lesson, to always let him know of every move I make...and if something is meant to be for me as long as I'm following His will it will be. (;

music speaks for me. (:

No one says it better than Taylor Swift! I love how her songs always tell your story in a nutshell (:



Anything can happen...

My life is just unexpected...

plenty of times I catch myself wishing things would happen, huge events that would be impossible to happen....

and then suddenly....

POOF!!

I think the best lesson I've learned in all my days is that anything can happen.

Sometimes, its weird how perfectly what I wanted to happen happens...

other times its annoying how terrible everything works out ha ha!

Now im afraid of imagining things happening because its almost as if I call things upon myself! ha ha sometimes this little wonderous mind of mine needs to just relax!!

Two Parts I CANT forget:

Of course I cant not skip writing about President Uchtdorf's talk:

These two parts absolutely touched me. So just read/listen to them"

Third, forget not to be happy now.

In the beloved children’s story Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, the mysterious candy maker Willy Wonka hides a golden ticket in five of his candy bars and announces that whoever finds one of the tickets wins a tour of his factory and a lifetime supply of chocolate.

Written on each golden ticket is this message: “Greetings to you, the lucky finder of this Golden Ticket … ! Tremendous things are in store for you! Many wonderful surprises await you! … Mystic and marvelous surprises … will … delight, … astonish, and perplex you.”³

In this classic children’s story, people all over the world desperately yearn to find a golden ticket. Some feel that their entire future happiness depends on whether or not a golden ticket falls into their hands. In their anxiousness, people begin to forget the simple joy they used to find in a candy bar. The candy bar itself becomes an utter disappointment if it does not contain a golden ticket.

So many people today are waiting for their own golden ticket—the ticket that they believe holds the key to the happiness they have always dreamed about. For some, the golden ticket may be a perfect marriage; for others, a magazine-cover home or perhaps freedom from stress or worry.

There is nothing wrong with righteous yearnings—we hope and seek after things that are “virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy.”⁴ The problem comes when we put our happiness on hold as we wait for some future event—our golden ticket—to appear.

One woman wanted more than anything else to marry a righteous priesthood holder in the temple and be a mother and a wife. She had dreamed about this all her life, and oh, what a wonderful mother and loving wife she would be. Her home would be filled with loving-kindness. Never a bitter word would be spoken. The food would never burn. And her children, instead of hanging out with their friends, would prefer to spend their evenings and weekends with Mom and Dad.

This was her golden ticket. It was the one thing upon which she felt her whole existence depended. It was the one thing in all the world for which she most desperately yearned.

But it never happened. And, as the years went on, she became more and more withdrawn, bitter, and even angry. She could not understand why God would not grant her this righteous desire.

She worked as an elementary school teacher, and being around children all day long simply reminded her that her golden ticket had never appeared. As the years passed she became more disappointed and withdrawn. People didn’t like being around her and avoided her whenever they could. She even took her frustration out on the children at school. She found herself losing her temper, and she swung between fits of anger and desperate loneliness.

The tragedy of this story is that this dear woman, in all her disappointment about her golden ticket, failed to notice the blessings shedid have. She did not have children in her home, but she was surrounded by them in her classroom. She was not blessed with a family, but the Lord had given her an opportunity few people have—the chance to influence for good the lives of hundreds of children and families as a teacher.

The lesson here is that if we spend our days waiting for fabulous roses, we could miss the beauty and wonder of the tiny forget-me-nots that are all around us.

This is not to say that we should abandon hope or temper our goals. Never stop striving for the best that is within you. Never stop hoping for all of the righteous desires of your heart. But don’t close your eyes and hearts to the simple and elegant beauties of each day’s ordinary moments that make up a rich, well-lived life.

The happiest people I know are not those who find their golden ticket; they are those who, while in pursuit of worthy goals, discover and treasure the beauty and sweetness of the everyday moments. They are the ones who, thread by daily thread, weave a tapestry of gratitude and wonder throughout their lives. These are they who are truly happy.

& Lastly: 

From the other side .....

I remember when I was a convert how sad it was for me when missionaries went home

I was young and didnt really understand but I thought it was so dumb that they had to go home.

"why couldnt they just stay?"

I would meet the coolest Elders and I just wanted them to stay!

Years later, I realize how excited I am for MY friend to come home and I know his mom and dad are too!

EVERYONE is excited. We had to give him up for 2 years to the Lord and now he will be back today (:

Its weird to see how things change. I now understand that those Elders had families too, friends, and even girlfriends waiting for them probably. I'm sure people in AK will miss Spence but sorry we already let you borrow him for 2 years (:

Yay for friends coming home! (:

K, so basically I have a best friend named Spencer who I love very very much.

he is such a stud and just so fun and nice.
I love that kid.

He has been serving a mission in Alaska for the past umm..

24 months (:

Which means his mission is over...

He comes home in

3 days!!!

I cant wait (:

he lives in Arkansas so I wont get to see him for a while ): ): ):

but

I do expect to hear from him soon and talk to him! (:

I cant wait to have my texting buddy back and to get to talk to him about everything he's so great at making me laugh and just being a dork.

He's also single so if any of you wonderful ladies are interested (; I would love for him to move out here and I KNOW a girl would be a good motivation. Just sayin... ha ha

Thats all! (:



It all happens so fast!!

I promies I try to update as often as I can but life just happens so fast and sometimes

theres no time to update on everything!!

Life is good (:

I've had some rough patches of coures but nothing too bad. I've learned a lot of good lessons in these past few weeks. I've also learned to deal with my problems, struggles, and what life throws at me by making Heavenly Father the pilot of every decission I take.

This past month I met a really awesome person who I wanted in my life for pretty much ever, but the Lord has other plans for me I guess...that's been tough to deal with but I just gotta keep on & it's been HARRRRDD but I'm very blessed to have things to help me keep going such as:

ROC (:

ROC started again and oh boy am I thankful ! I think this year I came back a little more dedicated, a week before it started I was so frustrated because things were just not going my way and I felt as if I was swiming to shore...grasping for air. Now that practices are back, and singing and dancing are a part of my life again I feel very ....safe. I know that this group is such a blessing to me and the people in it are my way of "keeping on". This year we are going on tour to New York (: So that's aslo a motivation to keep on!

Dental Assisting:
I finally started my dental assisting class and OHHH MAN! It is so so so so fun (: I love teeth and yesterday I got to touch my first mouth and AHHH!!! I love teeth that's basically it (: doing homework again is a little rough because I am rusty but its different when you're paying for it I guess../:

35th YSA Ward:

Ohh my ward (: everyone helps me keep going so much. I've been blessed with a new calling and it has seriously blessed my life. It uses a lot of time and preparing but oh its worth it. I love my bishop, my ward and basically just everyone. I'm very blessed to get to serve everyone in this ward. We had a "new batch" of people move in recently and its been fun to get to know more people!


MY ROOMMATES:
Holy!! I am sooo blesed to have the rommates I have, they seriously help me so much and put up with me so much. There are so many times when i just want to throw in thr towel but those girls are always there cheering me on, giving me the best piece of advice they can come up with and always helping me and encouraging me to ALWAYS Choose the Lord's way. Its so great (: 


So maybe the thing I want the most right now isnt working out but I have so many things that the Lord wants for me going on that ARE wroking out, and they honestly in the end are all I want. I know what the Lord wants for me is always best (:  


So there's a piece of what's been going on ! (:
hope it was worth the loooong reading!!


Until next time (:

Moving...again/:

"it could be worse" 

I hate saying that because it's like calling bad luck upon myself. 

A month ago I moved into a new apartment, i despised it. I hated it! It was the WORSE thing ever! 

I kept thinking how lame it is to have to do these kinds of things for yourself. No mommy to pack for you or anything. Actually packing my own stuff sucked! 

Well, yesterday we found out that a better apartment opened up where we live and they said if we want it we need to be out of there by today. 

You think moving apartments alone sucks?

Imagine packing up an entire apartment and moving with 5 other people?

IT IS HECKK!!!!

Sorry if I'm sounding like a big baby butttt its just really really a terrible moment.

We found out at about 4 right as I was getting off work. We packed for about 2 hours and then had to go grab dinner, right after I had dance until 11. I got home and we packed some more, then I went to bed because I had to be up at 6 am for work. today I get off at 3 (in the mean time all the girls are in class) and so we will have today to move. ): ): geeee! 

Thanks for letting me vent (: 

There's something about being Latina...

When people ask where I'm from I always have to say 

"I was born in Mexico, raised in Arakansas" 

people probably dont know why I give so much detail but I just cant leave either out because they are both important to me. 

Truth is I did live in Mexico for the first 9 years of my life 

and although I was very young I remember a lot about it and I remember the things that I saw while growing up. 

I remember being such a little munchkin and seeing all my aunts gather around to have 

"women time". I always thought it was soo cool that they would take us all to play while they ate, 

talked, and discussed their lives as "mexican wives". Later, I grew up to see my cousins 

gather together to talk about their married life, and talk as Mexican women usually do. I remember 

waiting for that day to arrive. 

After moving here that kind of faded because well, all my aunts weren't  around (at least not all 8 of them) 

so I kind of forgot what that feeling was like. Until I got a little older and my mom started bringing me around other Latinas who gather together at the gym, restaurants and talked about current events. 

The feeling sort of came back ... and I remembered that I was still awaiting that day. 

Years later, I just have to admit how much I love "Latinas" time. There is just something about being together with a group of Latinas that makes my heart just burn! It makes me so happy to finally have reached that age where I too can now have "Latina" time. I love it because we all share so many cultural values that could be easily forgotten in the world I live in but when I have my Latina time I just looove being part of it (: It makes me remember my mom and aunts, my childhood, and how excited I was for this day to come! It makes me so proud of my culture and just sooo excited to be a Latina mother/wife. 

The feeling is just unexplainable maybe we arent that much different than a bunch of "Poly" women or "African women" but its just so exciting to be around people my race (: 

decisions....

Allow me to be the first to admit that making decisions isnt easy 

but it is soo necessary. 

I admit to be one of the many who is scared to ever make a decision about small things but 

ESPECIALLY big things. I just get so scared sometimes but I think I do pretty okay for the most part. 

Ive come to learn that sometimes you just gotta go for something! What ever it is! 

The Lord does stop us if we go too far off path but at the same time he wants us to learn. 

I think sometimes people get so scared to make the wrong decision so they end up making no decision at all! Which in my eyes is the worse decision. People over think out comes so much.... 

but even if we over think them we still have no control over them. 

I guess I'm pretty irrational, and crazy sometimes but I've learned to find those things I love 

and am crazy about and to find something that makes me happy, or passionate and to just go for it. 

So far I dont have many regrets because I gave a chance to something I loved once. 

So just decide people! 

changes...changes..

Changes, left and right 

left and right

left and right!!!!!! 

This past week I had to leave my first apartment ): that was tough, because I love that apartment and I will miss it very very much. I had to move out all by myself that was different, I mean I know I talk about adult life a lot but its really crazy when you're packing up and moving alone. No parents, just friends. 

I moved into a new apartment with a whole new set of roommates. Who thankfully I am already friends with. So that's exciting. Then applying for my DA class is going on, plus making new friends. 

Changes happen all the time but its crazy when things change so fast! I do have to say its been a blessing to have certain friends who are there to remind me

:"Mariana, its going to be okay!! Breathe!" (: 

I also read this quote this week that reminded me everything will be ALRIGHT! (: 

‎"Commit yourself to put the Lord first in your life, keep His commandments, and do what 

the Lord’s servants ask you to do. Then your feet are on the pathway to eternal life. Then it

does not matter whether you are called to be a bishop or a Relief Society president, whether

you are married or single, or whether you die tomorrow. You do not know what will

 happen. Do your best on what is fundamental and personal and then trust in the Lord and 

His timing." -Dallin H. Oaks. (:

Bring on the changes life! (: 

Happiness always comes to those who are patient! (:

I've admitted thousands of times how dramatic I can be sometimes. 

When one little thing happens, sometimes I feel like im either 

On top of the world 

Or like...

My world is crashing down. 

Depends on the situation. (: 

However lately I've learned to just do my best, sit back, and let life happen. 

Its a little hard since I like having control of some things but I'v e had to learn patience

and man, am I glad. 

I think 

Patience=Happiness (: 

Things lately are sooo great. 

This weekened I'll move in to another apartment with awesome new roommates, 

DA class starts soon, and work is picking up ! (: 

Life is just good! 

Not to mention I'm meeting tons of NEW cool people! 

Oh happiness on earth! (: 

It hurts both ways...

I've blogged about heartbreaks before.

When someone breaks my heart i'm not afraid to admit it because I like people to know how jerky, stupid they were and I want all my friends and family to hate them with me. I honestly dont know why I do that but I guess it makes me feel better. Break ups suck! They hurt, and no matter how long the relationship was a break up is always a break up. There's always hope in one way or another that things would've worked out and the disappointing feeling of knowing that the search isnt over is always strong. Wishing there is something you can do to help them change their mind, wanting them to stick around to help you through it but knowing thats not an option. 

However, being the heart breaker isnt that much better. 

At least if youre one of the heart breakers who has feelings. 

Knowing that youre causing someone pain you've felt before, and that you've been there before sucks! 

Knowing there's nothing you can do (especially not you) to help it go away, that you have to just rely on time and get away from them to help it heal faster sucks...especially because they're someone you cared for! Wishing you could just put  yourself aside so they could be happy but knowing its not fair for either... 

Break ups arent fun but people, there is light at the end of the tunnel and I've come to learn that relying on friends, family and THE LORD is the best recepie! Let time happen, things flow, and keep living life! One day we will all have a happy ending (: until then, DONT give up! 

It hurts both ways... 

My new fave person!

Okay so last night I spent over 2 hours doing a research on my new
"idol" ha ha. 

I have officially adopted "Marilyn Monroe" as one of my fave ladies! 

I'm aware she is known as a "sex symbol" but aside from her wild life I just really like her! I began liking her because of her qutoes...so many of her quotes are amazing! 

Some of my fave are. 

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesnt believe, and leaves before she is left."

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as he** don't deserve me at my best."

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

"Someone said to me, 'If fifty percent of the experts in Hollywood said you had no talent and should give up, what would you do?' My answer was then and still is, 'If a hundred percent told me that, all one hundred percent would be wrong.'"

Maybe my new lil "idol" is a little dumb but I think she was a very wise woman (: She held her ground and knew who she was better than people think! 

Nuff said!

"One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,

that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most,have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, 

“The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you."

No One's Life is Boring.

This past week has been...a CRAZY week. 

I guess I can admit it hasnt been an easy week, 

 I've had new surprises left and right, and most of them haven't been pleasant! 

Yet, they kept life interesting! 

I'll admit that at the beginning of the week I just wanted to complain, cry and pout about how hard my life was but after a few days I began to notice that every little thing that has happened to me through out the week has made my life just that much more interesting. 

Sure, sometimes the unknown freaks me out SO much and I like KNOWING stuff. I like being sure that I'm not being set up for anything and that things will be okay but this week my faith has had to kick it up a notch and I'm having to be okay with not knowing much except that it will all work out! (: 

After focusing on only myself for a couple of days I began to look around, listen to other people's problems and then I noticed that life surprises us all!! Everyone has something going on, some sort of new surprise from life EVERY DAY !! Then I realized, NO ONE'S life is boring! 

So keep an eye out for the things that make your life a little more interesting (; 

Interview of a lifetime!

I have decided that if I had an option as to what I want to do for the rest of my life 

I would probably want to volunteer for a living! 

How ideal would just doing volunteer work be?! 

Sadly enough I have to have a job to pay for stuff but today I had THE most important interview of all my days! 

One of my dreams has always been to get a job at the MTC but you have to have like 1,000 qualifications to do it..which I'm sure I could do but its still years away! SO I kind of lost hope. ha ha but a couple of weeks ago I got an e-mail from the MTC asking me if I was interested in a position as a volunteer!! The duties would go as followed: 

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-Answer Spanish mormon.org chat
- Answer mormon.org and media inbound Spanish phone calls
- Participate in online teaching with Full-time Missionaries
- Fellowship online investigators through email, chat, facebook, blogs, etc.
- Follow up with investigators found through phone calls
- Find quality investigators for the Full-time missionaries
- Maintain a blog dedicated to finding and teaching investigators
- Help online investigators become converted to the gospel of Jesus Christ

My interview was today! Hopefully I'll get it...its a very important job so I'm sure the Lord will pick whoever is suited to bless those saints but just having the chance to even be considered is such a blessing (: 

I can honestly say this has been the biggest interview I've had in my entire life!  and I could die happy today! (: